I recently moved to a new city – Milwaukee, in the first semi-permanent move of my adult life. I’ve left for college, and to study abroad, but those moves didn’t necessitate the kind of inventory management this one has. In this move I took stock of what I own, and got rid of a lot of extraneous stuff; mostly to justify the extraneous stuff I know I’m going to accrue very soon.
In the interest of taking stock and being organized, I thought it would be nice to make a rig list dedicated to all the hardware shit I own that ostensibly helps me make art.
Motherboard: Gigabyte M68MT-S2
CPU: AMD FX-8120 Eight Core
GPU: NVIDIA GeForce GTX 960
HDD: 1TB Seagate
RAM: 8GB DDR3
Soundcard: Yamaha MG10XU (External)
-Yamaha MG10XU Mixing Console (Thanks for letting me steal this, dad)
-Polk Audio T15 Bookshelf Speakers
-Boss CH-1 “Super Chorus” effect pedal
-TC Electronics “Ditto X2” loop pedal
-V-Moda LP2 Headphones
-Pioneer VSK-522-K A/V reciever
– Floureon BM-800 Condenser Mic
This is probably a tacky thing to do, but I think it will be helpful for me to have a running list of the hardware I’m using, so I can at least know what I should prioritize upgrading, and so I don’t forget to use everything I have. It also gives me the comfortable illusion that I know something about life as I start to get bills, and tax thingers, and Starbucks “Partner Kits” in the mail. I’ve got a few nice “responsibility piles” going, but I’m already out of desk space, so maybe I’ll invest in a paper organizer next.
In other news, I have a Bandcamp! True, I’ve had one before, but this time I’m 70% sure I won’t immediately feel overwhelming self doubt and take it down right away. Because this time I have an EP! You can buy it for 3$, or pay what you want for any individual track. True again, this EP is actually just a collection of all the stuff I’ve made in the past year glued together and given a unifying image and title, but what is art anyway?
Actually though, it feels nice to put an end on something, even if it’s a mostly arbitrary end to something I didn’t really know I was starting to begin with. There’s a feeling of inadequacy I often get when listening to other peoples music. When I tried to express that feeling to my friend she asked, “Won’t you always feel that way though?”. It’s nice to think that my heroes have heroes and that they probably feel inadequate when they make that same comparison. I’ve found that no matter what I’m working on, it’s hard to value the progress I’m making. But it’s humbling to think that even if you “make it” in some way, it will still be hard.
I named the playlist that held my compositions “Fun & Games” a long time ago. I think at one point it held my one and only original recorded piece. But the title still feels appropriate. It’s a nice reminder that even though I’m making these arbitrary decisions, like when to be done with a project that has no deadline, and how much to sell it for – all I’m actually doing is playing and learning, and for the moment that’s all I want to be doing.
It seems like I’ve hit the equilibrium of boring technical blubbering and boring emotional blobbering, so ta-ta for now.